I wasn’t how I wanted to look. I had given up. I avoided pictures at all cost (Mike would sneak some when I wasn’t looking). I was anxious. I was exhausted. I was falling into a depression because I wasn’t happy with myself physically, mentally and definitely emotionally. I was eating out of boredom, stress eating (quitting work, staying home, Mike changing jobs a few times, moving 4 times in the span of a year etc), wanting food to fill that void, and slowly coming to the realization that I lost my sense of self, who was I? I was solely defined by being “just mom” and I used to to be so much more that than and wanted it back in addition to being a mom. My kids come first but if I am not the best version of myself how can I be the best mom for my kids?
I made the decision that night that I needed to do something about it. I needed to change, I wanted to change, I had to change, no way I could continue going down this rabbit hole. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and unhappy. I heard someone say, “our body is our temple. We only get one so why are you wasting it and not treating it like the temple it is”. I decided that I didn’t want something so controllable to be the reason I wasn’t around for my family or to prevent me from doing things with my family. So I did something about it.
Two months in and I was happy, no longer anxious, no longer exhausted despite getting no sleep with a little one, depression was gone and my relationship with food completely changed. A by product of this was that the weight is melting away. I started to find myself again, the old Sherry, the fun loving, loving life, wanting to do things Sherry was coming back.
It wasn’t until a few months ago that I came to the realization after transforming myself that being “just mom” isn’t a bad or negative thing. I am their hero, I am their protector, I am their teacher, I am their role model, I am their guide, I am their coach, I am their cheerleader, I scare away the monsters, I kiss the boo boos, I am the constant in their life, I AM MOM!
I refuse to let anything within my control take any of that away. So here’s to taking back my life and being 'just mom'."